Dreams of Serenity

This blog is here solely to record my dreams, aspirations and fight against my mental health demons but if it helps even one person feel supported, inspired or even that they are not alone, then I will consider it an even greater win.

My name is Dee and I am somewhere in the middle of my life with seemingly nothing to show for it. Yes, I know that its likely the mental health is talking itself down there, and that when I think about it for more than a second I have a lot I can be, and am, grateful for BUT it really doesn’t feel that way very often and even when my depression and anxiety are somewhat under control (thanks to the good meds!) I feel that life experiences and my own introverted nature have held me back from pursuing my dreams, or even knowing what they are. I am someone who really wants to have a purpose in life and look back knowing I achieved something and helped others but I also feel stuck and unable to move forwards, mostly through fear of failure and upsetting others. (Note to self – learn to say no! Its a complete sentence!)

Life is short. I want to fulfil my dreams, live a healthier life and do things that make me happy, living simply, serenely and peacefully are aspirations that seem so achievable but also so far away. Does anyone else feel like this?

I’m starting this blog to try and record my experiences and push myself into finding out my true values and ways to make my life my own. I’m holding myself accountable and if anyone else feels they need a push, I hope you find this blog and it helps you to achieve your own goals, or at least see that you are not alone in some experiences and emotions you feel. Dee x