Dreams of Serenity

It’s something that I strive to do but never really know how to start, finding my purpose in life. I envy people who have been able to simply and quickly know what their purpose is in life and how to achieve it, for example those who dream of being a vet or a docotor or a ballet dancer. I have spent my whole life not sure of what I want to do and who I want to be. I am an introvert who craves solitude but love to help people. I want to be alone but not lonely. I want to achieve something tangiable but not be noticed in a crowd. I am constantly at odds with myself and it makes it hard to know what to do for the best. Does anyone else have this problem because it mostly feels like its just me.

I took the Myers-Briggs personality type quiz years back and it turns out im an INFJ which is one of the rareist types of personality recognised (as if I didnt feel strange enough!) and it honestly helped to explain a lot about why I am the way I am. It doesn’t however give a step by step guide as to how to navigate being this way so here I am trying to figure out what I want from life and I guess that ultimately thats ok.

In recent years I have come to the conclusion that I want a simple, peaceful life. I want to live somewhere quiet with a garden and my pets and spend my days living in the moment. This is difficult for someone who has anxiety and depression and is constantly catastrophising and worrying but I’m trying and hoping that I will find the motivation and belief in myself to trust the process and achieve my dreams.

I would love for you to let me know your dreams and how you re achieving them, or even if you feel as lost as I do. Dee xx